I have this vivid memory of my first church service after my kidney transplant. It was October 31st, 2019, a Thursday night service, we were still meeting in the chapel. I had chosen a Thursday night to return because I knew it would be less people, since my human contact needed to be hindered due … Continue reading The Valley
I recently had a short return to the hospital. Without getting into the long drawn out reasons of what all happened, the short answer is that I got an infection. Which is common among those with weakened immune systems. The what of what happened in the hospital is not the part that I want to … Continue reading Justified
I have always found it interesting when people get mad at God and/ or their situation because it did not go as planned. You would think we would all know that no matter what we have planned God is going to find a way to change everything. At least I thought I knew that. After … Continue reading How I Got Here
I wrote this on August 30th, when I had returned to the hospital with some complications related to my medications. I am out and doing much better now! Thank you all so much for your prayers and constantly reaching out and checking in on me! Those who know me, know that I tend to do … Continue reading Green Pastures
Today I am going in for my kidney transplant. I officially found out around 9pm last night. Before I found out last night I had this post scheduled to post today before I even knew about the transplant. God is good. All the time. One of the elders in my church is known for asking … Continue reading How’s your faith?
Been a while since I have posted, but hopefully this one kind of shows why. It has been fairly evident to those around me that the past two months have been a little more rough than usual. Some have just straight up asked me why and then tried to fix it, while others have watched … Continue reading When the Mountain Moves You
I find myself often playing a game with God. I have to have faith that it’s going to happen. That I’m going to be healed and not need a transplant and that he’s gonna fix all of my health issues. But simultaneously I have to do it nonchalantly. I have to act like I don’t … Continue reading If the Healing Never Comes
There's an amazing woman in my church named Debbie Owens. She is the definition of a pillar. She's gone through the fire, flood and every other element and she is still standing. Any time I'm ever struggling on a Sunday, my worst day because of the lack of dialysis, all it takes is a hug … Continue reading Trusted by God
Many years ago Pastor Joel did a special sermon called "What's in the Box?". My memory of it is a little foggy, but I believe it was about how we all carry around a box. And in our box that we keep so close and protected is our hurts, fears, sadness, regrets, etc. The ending … Continue reading Locked in a Box
This past week was pretty tough. My reactions to dialysis seem to progressively be getting worse. What started as only a faint headache or just overall ickiness has developed into several migraines and throwing up. I'm not one to really complain but it gets hard when you already have so much wrong and more wrong … Continue reading An Unanswered Prayer
Purpose in the Pain 