I'm not sure how you listen to music but I like to listen to the same song on repeat until I hate it, then I will listen to it about 20 more times. Currently that song is "You Hold My World" by Israel Houghton. There is a part of the song towards the end that … Continue reading You Hold My World
The Things We Carry
In high school, I had to read this book called “The Things They Carried” by Tim O'Brien. Well lets be honest, it was more like skim for good quotes then Google the synopsis. In the book O'Brien lists physical items that the soldiers carried throughout the Vietnam War. These physical items are direct links to … Continue reading The Things We Carry
Reflections
I never totally understood all of the hype about ringing in the New Year; until recently that is. I used to think it was just everyone's excuse to go party, which for many people it still is, but it is so much more for everyone else. It's a time of reflection of the highs and … Continue reading Reflections
Thankful
It's officially holiday season, which means fun, food and family - not necessarily in that order. Since it’s Thanksgiving, I figured I would talk about giving thanks. I'm thankful for a lot of stuff. More and more as time goes on. My family, my friends, my church, my health etc. Yes, you did read that … Continue reading Thankful
Every Ounce
5:00 AM every Monday is the worst day of my week. I go through my weekend trying my best to conserve how much fluids I drink only for it to not even matter. It will be almost three full days since my last dialysis and every ounce would still be on my body, just sitting … Continue reading Every Ounce
Alive
I'm supposed to be dead right now. According to the doctors I should have been dead many, many years ago. Back in 2014, I was asked by three different doctors all on the same day how I was still alive. Every single fact that the doctors read were each readings they usually only saw in … Continue reading Alive
After the Valley, Before the Mountain
In an effort to get help and guidance through my own journey, I have talked to other people who have had to overcome great trials in their life. One of the questions I ask is "What was the toughest part of your journey?" Sometimes people say that the hardest part of their journey was when … Continue reading After the Valley, Before the Mountain
Scars
I have gone "under the knife", aka had some type of surgery, four different times. Chronologically it was the neck catheter, chest catheter, fistula and finally the donated kidney. Each time the doctor has walked in and drawn a little black x where he was going to cut and has done whatever work needed to … Continue reading Scars
Anemic
Blood. Some people are fascinated by it, some are disgusted at just the mere thought of it. I have never really focused on it too much until my kidney issues began. Not everyone knows this but your kidneys do two tasks. One is cleaning your system of the toxins that build up and the other … Continue reading Anemic
Hurdles
Each day I wake up and throw on my running shoes. If something isn't going wrong, then something is wrong. This is something that everyone has learned to live by. Just the daily opposition of work, school, family, church and life in general. Even when everything is going good there is still that one part … Continue reading Hurdles
Purpose in the Pain 