I find myself often playing a game with God. I have to have faith that it’s going to happen. That I’m going to be healed and not need a transplant and that he’s gonna fix all of my health issues. But simultaneously I have to do it nonchalantly. I have to act like I don’t … Continue reading If the Healing Never Comes
This past week was pretty tough. My reactions to dialysis seem to progressively be getting worse. What started as only a faint headache or just overall ickiness has developed into several migraines and throwing up. I'm not one to really complain but it gets hard when you already have so much wrong and more wrong … Continue reading An Unanswered Prayer
I'm not sure how you listen to music but I like to listen to the same song on repeat until I hate it, then I will listen to it about 20 more times. Currently that song is "You Hold My World" by Israel Houghton. There is a part of the song towards the end that … Continue reading You Hold My World
In high school, I had to read this book called “The Things They Carried” by Tim O'Brien. Well lets be honest, it was more like skim for good quotes then Google the synopsis. In the book O'Brien lists physical items that the soldiers carried throughout the Vietnam War. These physical items are direct links to … Continue reading The Things We Carry
Blood. Some people are fascinated by it, some are disgusted at just the mere thought of it. I have never really focused on it too much until my kidney issues began. Not everyone knows this but your kidneys do two tasks. One is cleaning your system of the toxins that build up and the other … Continue reading Anemic
Purpose in the Pain 