Been a while since I have posted, but hopefully this one kind of shows why. It has been fairly evident to those around me that the past two months have been a little more rough than usual. Some have just straight up asked me why and then tried to fix it, while others have watched … Continue reading When the Mountain Moves You
I find myself often playing a game with God. I have to have faith that it’s going to happen. That I’m going to be healed and not need a transplant and that he’s gonna fix all of my health issues. But simultaneously I have to do it nonchalantly. I have to act like I don’t … Continue reading If the Healing Never Comes
This past week was pretty tough. My reactions to dialysis seem to progressively be getting worse. What started as only a faint headache or just overall ickiness has developed into several migraines and throwing up. I'm not one to really complain but it gets hard when you already have so much wrong and more wrong … Continue reading An Unanswered Prayer
I'm not sure how you listen to music but I like to listen to the same song on repeat until I hate it, then I will listen to it about 20 more times. Currently that song is "You Hold My World" by Israel Houghton. There is a part of the song towards the end that … Continue reading You Hold My World
In high school, I had to read this book called “The Things They Carried” by Tim O'Brien. Well lets be honest, it was more like skim for good quotes then Google the synopsis. In the book O'Brien lists physical items that the soldiers carried throughout the Vietnam War. These physical items are direct links to … Continue reading The Things We Carry
I never totally understood all of the hype about ringing in the New Year; until recently that is. I used to think it was just everyone's excuse to go party, which for many people it still is, but it is so much more for everyone else. It's a time of reflection of the highs and … Continue reading Reflections
It's officially holiday season, which means fun, food and family - not necessarily in that order. Since it’s Thanksgiving, I figured I would talk about giving thanks. I'm thankful for a lot of stuff. More and more as time goes on. My family, my friends, my church, my health etc. Yes, you did read that … Continue reading Thankful
5:00 AM every Monday is the worst day of my week. I go through my weekend trying my best to conserve how much fluids I drink only for it to not even matter. It will be almost three full days since my last dialysis and every ounce would still be on my body, just sitting … Continue reading Every Ounce
I'm supposed to be dead right now. According to the doctors I should have been dead many, many years ago. Back in 2014, I was asked by three different doctors all on the same day how I was still alive. Every single fact that the doctors read were each readings they usually only saw in … Continue reading Alive
In an effort to get help and guidance through my own journey, I have talked to other people who have had to overcome great trials in their life. One of the questions I ask is "What was the toughest part of your journey?" Sometimes people say that the hardest part of their journey was when … Continue reading After the Valley, Before the Mountain
Purpose in the Pain 